If you haven’t figured it out by now, my writing is more for me than anything. And, very sporadic. I have found myself journaling more than anything by just using paper and pen. It’s been pretty therapeutic. I care very little if something is miss spelled or doesn’t have perfect punctuation.
Consider Yourself Semi-Updated
If you are a regular reader of my blog, which I doubt, I have a lot of updating that I need to do. Yet, I honestly don’t know that I will take much time. Let’s face it, It’s been almost a year exactly.
I am definitely on the other side of things — divorce and all the junk that goes with it. I can genuinely say I am happy and love my life. That’s not to say I don’t want things to change or improve from what they are. I’m just happy, and for a long time I couldn’t say it, and when I did, I didn’t mean it. Take that punctuation police. lol
In 2018 I made a solid attempt to train for a tough mudder and lost 85 pounds in the process. I didn’t make it past the sixth obstacle, ultimately got pulled off the course, and hooked up to an IV for dehydration. It made for a great story and photo op though. I will be back in 2019.
So, What Do I Mean By Slow Progress and Fast Changes?
Not much more than just that really. There have been a ton of changes and there seems to be no slowing to that fact. My personal progress, however, in my opinion, has been slow. It’s all been good. Challenging, lots of work, and good. I have so much that I want to accomplish in 2019!
I will say that having friends pick up and move to another state has been tough. Just typing it out makes me well up a bit. I guess I can get a little over emotional from time to time. Especially when it comes to these types of things. Doing life with people is how we were designed and it’s a blessing. When those people become family and love you in and through your mess of a life… It’s hard when God calls some of them off to Texas or California. I think mostly I’ve just experienced feelings of regret. The regret of not being more intentional about spending more time with them while I had the opportunity.
Now, let’s not get over dramatic. They aren’t dead and I can pick up the phone and call at any time. But, you get what I am saying.
Time is Short, Act Accordingly
If I have learned anything these last few years, it’s that life on this earth is short. There is no telling what’s around the corner or how long I will have somebody in my life. Opportunities can be very short lived and when you don’t make the most of our most precious resource, lots can be lost.
It’s important to me not to waste time in anger or resentment, dwelling on loss or regret, procrastination, holding back, shrinking down, playing small, and most of all not being the man God created me. I feel like I am learning more and more just who that man is and I don’t want to waste any time trying to be anything else.
Luke 10:27 The man answered, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind.’ And, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.”